To Thyself Be True

Hello Diary,

Yes, I know I am tired of this appearing and disappearing act too.

But promising to be a consistent blogger who updates her blog every single day will be the same as our government's promise to provide sustainable power in 2020.

So I'd rather keep mum and dwell on this moment.

So hello again, I have missed you as much as a dog misses its bone and I mean it :).

A while back I wrote about CHANGE; the exciting yet scary feeling it brings.

Months later, I can say it has been a roller coaster ride.

From me seeking escape in the warmth and wealth of Arabian soil to me evaluating and reevaluating different aspects of my life.

And I must say the basic output of it all has been the essence of the quote "To Thyself be True".

Subconsciously we go through life based on other people's / societal approval.

Starting from the right way to dress to the right way to conduct oneself in public.

Yes, I honestly embrace the idea of law and order but where does one draw the line between being uniquely you and being the person others want you to be.

It gets blurry sometimes.

Even while writing this piece, I kept going back and forth wondering if I am saying the appropriate thing.

And that is quite tiring.

Most times I just want to say whatever, do whatever and be whatever without getting so engrossed in other people's opinions.

And this time away from my usual routine has taught me that the approval you really need is: 

One from God.

The other from your intuition.

At the end of the day when you look back at the decisions you have made in the past, those are the things that will matter.

If you make the right decision, you can give yourself a pat on the back and boost your self-confidence.

If you make the wrong decision, you can pick yourself up and try again using a better method.

Either way, you go to bed at the end of the day knowing you were true to thyself.

It really doesn't matter if people don't understand you or approve of your decision.

Really how many people can you please in this life time???????

So if you want to scream, scream till you have a sore throat.

If you want to write whatever comes to your head (like me), write it...like really who cares.

If it makes you feel like a million dollars, just do it.

Drown out the critics in your head and live a little.

Now that I have eloquently written all of the above, now its time to carry out the hard task: LIVE BY IT.

But hey nothing good comes easy, besides I just managed to say my mind without being impeded by the voices in my head, that's a good start yeah?

Smile.